Lots Of Little First Details..

In order to try to describe discovering I had a disorder, well at the start all I can say I remember was waking up after the first blackout. I didn't know what happened or understand why people were standing around me asking if I was ok. I was disorientated, nauseous and blurry eyed. I felt like I have never felt before. It’s not the normal feeling like if you bang your head on a door, or being dizzy - to be honest it was unexplainable. I'm just lucky I wasn’t alone when this first happened. I was in college a few years back and it just popped out of the blue. My heart plummeted and I have never been so scared before.

 It took a while for me to come around but luckily I had close friends with me so they did look after me and helped me after I had the seizure. I was terrified as I’m sure many others are after having things like panic attacks, anxiety attacks and epileptic seizures. That day I cried so many tears I didn’t even realise it was possible. I didn’t know really what had gone on and I didn’t know what to do. I had so many thought’s going on in my head: 

'Shall I tell Mum and Dad? 

Shall I call in sick tomorrow for college just in case it happens again?

 Do people now think I’m weird?' 

The main question I asked myself was …is there something wrong with me?

I’m sure many of these thoughts have gone through others heads. They aren’t very nice thoughts as I’m sure you would all agree. After I had my first seizure I didn’t tell anyone, though now when looking back I do regret that. I held it off and kept it between me and my friends; I was embarrassed and ashamed of what had happened and I now know I shouldn’t have been. I shouldn’t have thought of all those thoughts but automatically without thinking all these worries just came out and made me keep panicking and fretting what the next day was going to bring. After that day of my first seizure my self-esteem, confidence and health went to an all-time low. It luckily didn’t happen for about 2 months but every day was a constant worry for me. I tried to avoid social events and without sounding silly I did try to even avoid sitting at my dinner table at home for too long. I tried to avoid as much as I could to prevent my parents from finding out. 

Photo takenoff www.candlelightconcert.org.

Luckily my friends were there for me and tried to help me with anything they could. I will always give my heart to those that have helped me through my tough times. Sadly after two months it started to get worse and happened a few times over about a week. This continued for about 3 months and then for some reason it laid dormant and I didn’t have it until last March. Before the seizure lied dormant, my friends were getting very worried about me. Always asking if I’m ok and helped me with college work as I was too busy panicking and being scared to think about it. They tried to make me happy and live a normal life that a 16 year old should have had.. although unfortunately this wouldn't be the case for me.

Has anyone else ever suffered, or lived this way?

Love Alice<3

Epilepsy..The Starting Point..

Hi and welcome to my little bit on my blog.  My name’s Alice Rose i'm 20, and i’m a sufferer of a life condition you've probably heard of called Epilepsy. I was officially diagnosed with it in 2011 although like many illnesses I had to struggle to get it properly recognised. Living with this condition forced me to make a lot of changes to my lifestyle a lot of them are quite limiting. Having uncontrollable seizures also brought a lot of negativity to my life and relationships as a side effect besides the fits themselves. I’m sure a lot of fellow sufferers out there also feel the same and so I want to not only share my story here, but pass on the advice that I've learned. Hopefully people don’t have to suffer if my experiences can help instead! I have found ways to lessen or deal with symptoms, notice warning signs and importantly get my mind off of the illness. They helped me get past the worst part of my life although dealing with the illness is still a daily struggle and I don’t have a cure, a lot of the time I do have very good days too! I know that if I can keep going and share, then others don’t have to feel alone so my idea is that art, fashion and the way you think can change your perception of Epilepsy in a positive way. In my upcoming posts I’ll try to show this to you all and I very much hope that I can learn from you all too! <3

Love Alice <3

Photo off of Dailypositivequotes.com

Pop Couture Christmas Collection..

A few weeks ago I had the lucky chance of going to London to see Pop Couture's Christmas Collection with other bloggers. Well I'm new to blogging so it was lovely to meet other bloggers and ask them questions and just nice to meet new people. I headed up to London after work with my lovely friend Holly who invited me along. I don't really know London so it was great that Holly had done a great plan of how to get there and times of transport! We live a few hours away so it was a heck of a trek! But was worth it.

I was so worried about what clothes to wear and how to look as i had never been to an event like this before. But everyone there and the Pop Couture hosts all made us feel very welcome. Another thing me and Holzie loved was the venue 'Neo' was lovely. 

We got given some lovely tins of goodies :) Including a t shirt, necklace some sweeties :) Was a lovely gift.

There was a table full of  from Pop Couture products. From glittery handbags to gorgeous necklaces and earrings. Just made you want to go on the website and buy!

There were also lots of glittery stars on the tables making it looks very sweet and christmassy.

All of the clothes were lovely. From jackets to blouses, there were also a range of dresses and shorts. Every girls wardrobe dream. There was so much detailing on some of the clothing it looked amazing. 

There was a mixture of colours. I really loved the jackets on show, as well as the metallic look.  I would most definitely recommend to have a look at their website as its everyone's taste there's such a wide range of clothes. We had to choose one item of clothing. So i chose a lovely black dress. It was lovely. It had slits at the side which made is a bit more of a party dress and would look lovely on a night out.  I didn't actually know what item of clothing to choose as the range was all lovely. 

The mannequin above shows some of the great clothes on show. As you can see it also shows the blouse with the embellishment on the collar and also is wearing the lovely sequin skirt.

At the event there was also a makeup artist there giving all the girls different ideas to do with their make-up. Me and Holly had a lovely colour lipstick from MAC in which with her also adding some glitter on top. It looked amazing. A great night out look although feeling really funny on your lips. :)

I had a really lovely evening and was great to meet others. Thank you Pop Couture!!

Love Alice <3

Lots of Little Bits in London..

Well I'm sure as you all know London is amazing to shop! It's so exciting and the shops well where could i start! There are so many! I went there to do some Christmas shopping on Saturday and well i cannot believe how busy it is at this time of year! So many shops and so little time. (Although i did drag my partner there for 11!) Ha. Well as I'm sure you've all seen Starbucks is almost everywhere (apart from where i live) and well there drinks are so yummy and a nice treat to have once in a while as well as being a kick start to the day. I have never been a coffee fan.. I'm more a Herbal Tea kind of girl. But i went out there and had a 'Praline Latte'. WOOHHH its strong and made me buzz for hours!!!

Yumm! With loads of squirty cream on top! Every girl's dream. I was double naughty though and had a double chocolate muffin!! Was a lovely start to the day and it also made the partner happy :).

London's christmas lights looked incredible.. and they were everywhere. They were either funny or sweet ones. Ranging from Marmite advertising to little fairy twinkle lights.

WARNING MARMITE ADVERT BELOW!!

(As you can see they also have put peoples faces in the middle as Santa Claus!!!)

Another thing I had noticed was there Window Dressing was so outstanding and eye grabbing. I would love to be a Window Dresser but this is a very hard career to get into. I love looking at other shops work and helping my idea or this career expand. My favourite was Selfridges & Co. They had such a wide range of ideas and all promoting there products. And all very Christmassy!

I really like the idea of a girly sleepover. In a tent in which looked to be made out of fabrics that they sell in-store. There was trees, the Mannequin was wearing shoes and clothing in which is also sold in-store. I also love the fake miniature pizza's on the floor :).

There was also an amazingly funky Santa. He i definitely in the 20th Century.

Showing a PINK santa slay! With some luxurious lingerie on mannequin's.

GINGERBREAD HOUSE!!! also showing basket full's of goodies!!

I'm sure you all love sweets. This was one of my favourite display's!! There were sweets falling off of a  treadmill.! It was sweet heaven... There were sweets everywhere!! it was one of them moments where you wanted to just jump into all of the chocolate!! It reminded me of Charlie and His Chocolate Factory!! So scrumdidilyumtious!!!

Have any of you seen the displays? And all excited too i hope! 20 DAYS!!

Alice <3